Its been 10 days since I said goodbye...Everyday, in some form or the other, in a picture, a song, some forgotten lyrics, some old chats, a tinkling bracelet and a beautiful card...the only one I have....I have been seeing you around...I have not yet understood how to deal with your absence...Its been long since I dealt with the death of a relationship...And this one, I had given my life...
There have been several goodbyes before...But none have been so firm...This time, I don't know what was different...The conviction of my needlessness in your life...The height of listless frustration in the relationship...an unhealed disappointment....The completely erased picture of - Dada n Sis... I don't know...All I know for sure is that I have lost the capacity to face you without being overwhelmed with an emotion I dont want to familiarize with....I know when I felt like this last...It was long time ago...And I have not missed it at all...And yet, I just cant seem to dodge it...
I feel choked...almost like there is a noose choking my entire body...I squirm at your most leisurely interactions... And I dont know why I still seek the shadows in this over illuminated pandemonium of my life, whenever I think of you....All I know is that I need a place to hide away from that face...those eyes...that smile...
And the way you called me SiS.....
